Friday, September 18, 2009

long time no blog

Ok so I've decided that I need to make time for blogging... I enjoy it and you'd never know that by the frequency of my posts...

This week has been a tough one. My first dog, Duncan, a 12.5 year old golden retriever, went to doggie heaven on Wednesday. I left home a year ago, knowing that he wasn't gonna last much longer. Well, about a week ago, my mom called to inform me that Duncan is having a lot of trouble walking and that she was gonna take him to the vet and have him put down the next day. So, I went and said goodbye. Well, my parents didn't take him. They decided to postpone it a bit more (to make sure his legs were really not gonna function much more) and take him over the weekend.

The weekend came and went, the dog still lived. Come Wednesday, my mom called me and told me she needed me to take the dog with her. Originally my father and her were going to take him and drop him off at the vet and let the process take place when they drove home. However, my dad hurt his back pretty bad at work over the weekend and now he was unable to help. Ever since the first phonecall, I was troubled with the idea of just leaving Duncan, alive, at the vet and letting him die alone.

So, I fully believe that this entire process was in God's hands. I decided to have my mom make the appt for me to stay in the room with the dog (Steve was there, he didn't even hesitate to offer his presence). I cried at first, but Steve told me 'don't let this be Duncan's last memory of you.' At first, his advice angered me because I was sad. Then I just talked with Duncan and told him of all the awesome memories I have of him. Thank God for Stephen, he always has good advice.

All in all, I spent the last hour and a half of Duncan's life with him, and I wouldn't have changed a thing. Once the vet tech put a cathader in his arm, the doc came (I had been with the dog for an hour at this point) and talked with me. The barbituates were given to him within a minute, he was in doggie heaven. His last few moments on Earth were peaceful, which is exactly the way they should be. His heavy panting leveled out to a normal breathing pace and my beautiful doggie went to sleep while I rubbed his ears, just like I used to do when he was a puppy. However this time was forever.

These are only a few of the fond memories I'll cherish forever.

1. Duncan looked like Tigger (my fav Disney character) as a puppy.. just minus the stripes.
2. He was one of the best looking dogs in the neighborhood, he always got compliments.
3. When he was a puppy, we used to run together. One day, he was in the garage with my parents and a box fell. I was running alone, up the hill next to hour house, when I saw an orange blob run up towards Western. Then I saw my parents van.. yep, Duncan had got spooked and ran all the way to Carl's Jr on Western from our house!!!
4. I'll miss him most on Christmas morning. Duncan used to open our Christmas presents!! He loved it and so did I.

5. If you tried to do paperwork on the floor... Duncan would lay all over the paperwork!
6. He loved to sleep with me and kick me out of my own bed!! LOL.. a full bed with a large golden left me with 6 inches of bedspace!
7. When he finished eating, he'd go into the living room and rub his face on his napkin (a rug just for him) and then lay on his back and wiggle around!!
8. He had a tail that if it whipped ya, it really hurt!
9. All of my gal friends remember him for 'goosing' them all the time!
10. Duncan was my buddy through a lot of rough times.
11. He leaves behind two 'girlfriend' goldens in the neighborhoood!
12. He ate a hole in the wall three times as a puppy.
13. My mom's fav new couch became Duncan's chew toy as a pup!
14. there are too many more to write at this time....
15. one more..he loved to eat the brown roll from tp and paper towels! we'd wrap them up for him at Christmas!

Waffles will miss his buddy!

Duncan puppy pics to come in the future..

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

dentists, late work days, and no calls/no shows

Today would be a great day for a nap before work. I just got home from the dentist (yay! an hour ago...scolded the dog for eating Jenny's jump rope, and checked my phone, just prior to taking a nap..

Well, I should have just gone to sleep. It turns out that someone no called-no showed at work and I'm the next person scheduled to arrive (12pm) and now I get to go in early..GRRR! THis person has done this before, I'm thinking he really doesn't want to work for me much longer...

Regardless, if you can friends, please enjoy the sunshine for me and take a nap, if you can... I'll be serving coffee to the masses instead.

At least I'll be off work in time to see the end of the day... (8:30pm is the scheduled time, but perhaps I can leave early today...)

Friday, June 26, 2009

As I leave the country

This Sunday marks my long awaited trip to Japan!! I am going with my family, 15 of us to be exact, for an awesome 10 day tour. This trip is going to be special for several reasons, one is that I am extremely grateful and thankful to be going at all, as my grandparents are paying for it. Secondly, my Grandma and Grandpa Kobayashi are not as 'young' as they once were and I feel that this may be one of the last big trips we'll all be able to go on. Lastly, it will be my first Independance Day spent out of the USA in my 30 years of life... So I am contemplating many things, mostly gratitude and excitement. I'm trying not to get too excited, seeing as though I'm not finished packing yet, only 25% at this point.

And yes, Kobayashi is Japanese....I have a Japanese step family that basically adopted me from around age 7 or 8. It's as if I am half Japanese, but just inherited all of the recessive genes. So I bid the USA a fond farewell....look forward to many stories and hundreds of photos!!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

A random pic of my pup.

I want to blog, but my patience for uploading pics is low right now, so no blog today, just a cute pic of my pup, Waffles!

Monday, June 1, 2009

unconventional blessings

over the weekend I received a call from a supervisor at work, informing that one of our off duty partners came in to purchase a drink, but in the process of ordering he became non-responsive, his speech became slurred and he couldn't move anymore.

The partners on duty responded immediately to the situation by calling 911, picking the partner up and putting him in a chair (he didn't fall to the floor, but couldn't move from the counter he was leaning on) and called myself and his emergency contact.
It turns out that there was an EMT in training and an RN in the store at the time, so they tended to the partner as best they could while they awaited the ambulance. They suspected a possible stroke, and was rushed to Torrance Memorial.

The next day, as I arrived at the hospital for a visit, I didn't know what to expect. My partner was still in the ICU, so I prepared myself for the worst case scenario. Thankfully, upon sight, we could see that he was doing well and there were no signs of a stroke. It turns out the partner had taken several muscle relaxers and was on anxiety meds, the two are not meant to mix.
The doc told my partner that his heart actually stopped, and he stopped breathing at one point, and that if this event had happened while alone, it was quite possible that he could've died.

My partner is a believer, he has been reflecting on the event and is in awe of how perfectly planned it was.

1. He was scheduled to work on Sunday, but early in the week he got his shift covered, this wouldve been the day after his 'event'.

2. All day Saturday, the partner was moving out of his old house and triggered his old back injury. He was home by 6pm, showered, ate dinner, took the muscle relaxer, and sat down to watch the Lakers game. He was going to stay in for the night, but at halftime thought a caramel macchiatto sounded really yummy, so he went to sbux.

3. The partners working responded quickly,calmly and appropriately.

4. There was an EMT and RN in the lobby that were able to help.

5. His emergency contact wasn't answering the phone, but I know his sister and brother-in-law, so I called every number I had for them and called the BIL's work to get his wife's phone number...within an hour of the event, they knew what was going on and were on the way to see him.

I guess the whole purpose of this blog is to remind us all to take a moment and remember the unconventional blessings in our lives. My partner found himself asking 'why me?' at first, but now he knows it was all in God's hands. This event reminds me to remember the small, unconventional, unasked for blessings that we all receive on a daily, weekly, monthly basis.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Getting Started

After weeks of consideration, I've decided to blog. I'm looking forward to sharing my life with y'all in a new way. I'm not sure if I like my background, so when Angela and I have time, perhaps she'll help me create something awesome?? :)